I am guilty. I have been tried and convicted in my own court. I shall forever have to live with this... This shame... This guilt...
What have I done? I am a pretty good person. I pray. I go to church. I take care of my kids. Sometimes I loose my temper. But over all I am a pretty good mom and wife. I try to help people. I try to keep a positive attitude.
So WHAT IS IT THAT I AM GUILTY OF?!?!?!?!
Well, I am guilty of forgetting.
Forgetting what, you ask?
Oh man, this is where things get complicated. :/ I am guilty of forgetting a few things.
1: All of my blessings. I know people say count your blessings, and sometimes I do. But I never really get past the typical: kids, husband, family and friends. But what about the other things? What about the toilet that I can sit on that has perfectly good water in it? What about the toilet PAPER that I am so picky about? What if I didn't have those things?!?!?! How my life would change! What about the blessing of soap to clean with? I have recently become a soap snob, but what about those who don't have ANY soap? It's these little blessings that I am guilty of overlooking....
2: The place that I live. Sometimes I find myself getting so mad/angry at people in the government and positions of power that I forget how great it is to live in the good ol' US of A. We are free... What would life look like if we were NOT free to choose and do what we feel? That is a true life fact for many people around the world. I am guilty of taking freedom for granted....
3: Those persecuted around the world. This is what I am most ashamed of. Forgetting those persecuted around the world. HOW COULD I??? I will tell you how... Because I live a life in posh surroundings and pleasantness. I am embarrassed to say this. But it is true. I actually FORGET that others don't live like this. I forget that I can go to church, heck WORK in a church, without fear for my life. I forget that others have to meet in secret and even then they are not safe.
4: My time with my children. I forget just how awesome my time with my children is. I know that some mom's have to make ultimate sacrifices for their children. Who gets to eat dinner tonight? Who gets to sleep in a bed? Even to the point of laying down their LIVES to protect their children. I actually FORGET that this is a burden for some mom's... HOW DARE I??????
This post is more about calling myself out to REMEMBER these things. To REMEMBER to be grateful. But if you are feeling guilty by reading this, then I call you out to rem