I have "graduated" from therapy. Some of you might not even have known that I was IN therapy, but I was. And this past week after 21 months, I finally met the goals that I set.
After Eli came home from the hospital, I realized something was not right. I didn't feel good, I was sad all the time, I had horrid flashbacks to the NICU, I just wasn't myself. So I decided to see someone and talk about it. The first therapist didn't fit well with me and I started to see Dr. Marsha in April 2011. She ROCKS! I was able to set goals and try my hardest to meet them. I was diagnosed with post-partum depression and post-traumatic stress disorder. It has been a LONG and HARD journey, and by no means am I CURED, but I am in a MUCH better place that I was.
One of the things that Dr Marsha said to me at our last meeting was how strong I was to be able to keep going even when I was that depressed. I kept working, I kept mothering, I kept on. I am really proud of that! :o)
PPD is a hard thing to deal with and many women blam themselves. I knew that it wasn't my fault and yet, I still blamed myself. It is very serious! Please love on your pregnant and post-partum mom's and let them know that you will support them always!