Sometimes my thoughts and I just don't get along. I wish they were always happy and upbeat, but they aren't. And today I am having conflicting thoughts... I KNOW how blessed I am with Eli. I KNOW that. We have come a long way since my 2 lb miracle was born. :o) Then I read another blog about another 2 year old. He has cancer and is dying... Why is he dying? Why is that happening to him and his family, when we were so blessed that it didn't happen to us? Why? I know I won't get answers till I get to heaven and ask Jesus, but my earthly heart and mind want to scream, "WHY DO YOU LET THIS HAPPEN? WHY DO YOU LET LITTLE PEOPLE GO THROUGH SO MUCH? WHY DO LITTLE PEOPLE DIE?" I think Jesus might say, "It's because through pain and suffering people learn to lean on Me a little more. Because I am a gracious and loving God who doesn't want the pain and sorrow of Earth to continue for these little ones." But sometimes my response to that is, "Why isn't there another way?"
So I think I may push my thoughts out of my head and watch Mickey with Eli... I am so thankful that for the the moment, Eli doesn't have to deal with thoughts like this... His biggest thought is Mickey or Handy Manny? Juice or water? This toy or that? And for those thoughts, I am the perfect mama to help him answer them! :o)