936 months
or
28,470 days
or
683,280 hours
or
40,996,800 minutes
or
2,459,808,000 seconds
of life on average.
When I break it down like that it really doesn't seem like enough. And what about the people who pass on at a younger age? MAN! Time is so fleeting. I look at Eli and Jack and this is what I see:
It's so hard. Because sometimes (if I am honest with myself) I don't even want to leave the house. I want to hole up in the house and lock out the rest of the world and stay right where we are forever. Of course I know I can't. I know they will continue to grow and one day they WON'T want mama to give them kisses. But for the moment, for the time being, I will give them as many kisses as I can and stop counting those 2,459,808,000 seconds.